This post is by Alex Iwashyna of Late Enough, who is also Ms. November in the Blogger Body Calendar, a charity project to promote healthy body image.
When my children walk into the bathroom and watch me going through the feminine rituals of shaving and makeup, I wonder if I’ve let them down. If my conforming to these cultural ideals makes me a cog in the wheel of less than and not enough.
Every time I suck in.
Every time I look for extra lift or pull or push.
Every time I pluck and wax and shave and color and lighten and darken and change.
Am I giving messages that I cannot take back? Am I saying that the one person, who seems like everything to them, is not enough?
My son still wanders naked through the house.
My daughter still says boob like it’s pointing out an ear or a nose.
But one day these will take on so much more meaning.
One day my daughter will ask to shave her legs and I will acquiesce.
My son will ask for weights. And I will hand them over.
And worry. Whenever they don’t eat enough. Whenever they eat too much. Whenever they look in the mirror and sigh the sigh that I know so well.
I’m not enough. I’m not enough. I’m not enough.
It’s a very little thing to pose mostly naked for a calendar. It won’t change everything.
But when I wrote underneath my picture, “There’s nothing more daring than being yourself,” I hoped that it would move someone just a bit. Awaken the voice inside each of us. The voice that whispers: Take a chance. Go and be radical. Go and be beautiful.
Go. And be yourself.
You can sneak a peek at the Blogger Body Calendar where all proceeds go to the National Eating Disorders Association. If you have been touched by an eating disorder or if you just want to be reminded throughout 2011 that you are beautiful just the way you are, buy a calendar.
Also, your very own Crunchy Betty over at the Blogger Body Calendar for our Food and Body Image week! Check her and her sushi out!